We hear the phrase “the calm before the storm” a lot.
And having grown up mere blocks from the Atlantic Ocean I certainly understand what it means.
I’d often be enjoying a bright, sunny, and calm summer day when out of nowhere a storm would roll through.
But have you ever taken the time to notice the calm in the midst of the storm?
A few weeks ago, we had a pretty good storm roll through here with high winds and lots of heavy rain.
John and I watched it from the living room and at one point I noticed, right in the midst of the storm’s chaos, it calmed. It was for barely a moment but it was as if the storm took a pause and then kicked back in again.
That’s sort of what life feels like right now.
Not long ago, John and I were enjoying a quiet evening in our backyard when the emotions came over me like a tidal wave and I just started crying.
He knew what was wrong.
He’s known what has been building up.
He didn’t really have to ask but he did anyway.
You see, John and I are facing some major financial and professional storms.
It just seems like one blow after another.
One more mountain we just can’t seem to climb.
The other morning, John left for a meeting and after a lot of pacing around the house, (I pace a lot when I’m in the throes of anxiety-ridden moments), I went up to the bedroom and collapsed on the bed.
Actually, I didn’t say much at all.
I was just still.
The Lord knows my pain right now.
He knows because I’ve been praying about these situations for months, heck for years.
And all at once I found some peace. I found a calm, a calm I’ve been asking the Lord to give me for a while.
Did I get the answers I want?
But the Lord’s timing is perfect and in that moment, face down on the bed, I could hear the words I needed to hear “My timing is perfect, Beth. Lean not on your own understanding. I have a plan, a perfect plan.”
I got up from the bed with a renewed outlook on the day.
Does that mean anxiety over these mountains and storms won’t hit me again this evening or tomorrow? No. But He knew what I needed in that very moment.
I do believe His timing is perfect and I believe that His plan for my life, mine and John’s life, and our path together is perfect.
It’s not always easy to keep pushing through but I serve a God that performs miracles and can move those mountains we’re facing when it’s time for those mountains to be moved.
As I sit in my room dedicated to devotions and writing and studying, I am writing this with tears streaming down my face. Yet, while I know John and I have some very serious decisions to make, I have a calm, a peace.
Despite all that is going on, I am blessed.
I have a God who loves me for who I am.
I have a devoted husband and a strong marriage.
I have friends and family who are always there for me no matter what I need.
I am truly blessed.